Pining for Movie Stars

Many gay males are haunted by a desire for a younger, handsomer, more athletic lover than they are. They may even become fixated on the perfection of some movie or porn star they have never met. Here are some ways to deal with that:

• Ever since I have been a little boy, I a wanted a Dalmatian puppy. Dalmatians are rambunctious dogs. They need lots of room and someone to take them for long daily runs. I am in no position at my advanced age of 70 years and wobbly health to offer that. A Dalmatian would be miserable living with me. In like manner, a much higher status lover would not be happy with me either.
• If I had such a lover, he would be a ripe target for having his heart stolen away by someone more appealing than me. It would be hard not to worry and enjoy the moment.
• If I had such lover, people would embarrass him with questions about what is the matter with him that he put up with someone so low status as me and why he stayed with me. Was I a sugar Daddy? He would have to keep justifying his choice to the world.
• When I was younger, my lovers used to complain about my incessant desire for sex. I could well end up on the other end of the problem. It is quite unpleasant to go through the motions of sex when you are not into it.
• He could come to lord his higher status over me and expect me to grovel before him.

~ Roedy (1948-02-04 age:70)